I need advice on a guy problem!!!!!?

OK so i have this friend he really cares about me because i cut myself. We both like each other lots but his old girlfriend broke up with him through a text message and his parents were jerks and had him tested for severe depression. The test showed that he was only bipolar. A few days ago he yelled at me for calling myself a hideous emo freak and then apologized. When i first started cutting he begged me to stop. But i didn't and he told me he doesn't want me to get seriously hurt. So when i did he cried and began hurting himself over me. When i started drinking he immediately told me to stop. So when we were txting one night and i stopped txting him after 10min he got worried and kept txting me when i woke up and noticed he had kept trying to reach me at 1am i sent him at txt saying sorry i passed out and when he asked from what i said sorry but it was from blood loss and too much vodka. he started to cry and told me to never do that again and then on the last day of school when i got high off spray paint he told me to go tell a teacher to take me to the nurse and have me sent home. But i just told him that i was completely fine and that i didnt need to go home so when i fell on the floor and passed out and my best friend called him and told him wht happened he told me tht its not good for me and tht i need to stop. But i cant getting drunk and cutting helps take away the pain of not being good enough for him. and we cant date cuz his parents kno i cut and drink and dont even want him to talk to me but he still is sooooo. wht do i do?................ and DONT YOU DARE CALL ME A TROLL OR AN ATTENTION SEEKER OR A EMO FREAK CUZ I CAN TAKE THE NAME CALLING OH AND DONT EVER TELL ME "NO ONE CARES, KILL YOURSELF" JUST DONT!